In the Old Testament, David was known as somewhat of an early spelunker, having spent so much time in caves.  But it was in those caves that he was mentored by the Holy Spirit and honed by God into the man whom God could trust - both in servanthood and kingship. 

Most Christians have, at one point or another, found themselves in a cave experience.  It seems to be doubly true that those among us who have been called into the ministry will ultimately find themselves in a cave, questioning God and His will for their lives.

As I write this, the light is low, and it is a bit difficult to breathe.  The reason?  I, too, am in that cave.  It is not my first visit here.  Sometimes, it feels like home!  But I am here and, like David, I am crying out to God.  And, like David, I know that He is with me.

If you have read other sections of this website, you know where my heart is.  You know of my passion for a redeemed America.  You may even have some of that passion yourself.  If so, please pray for me that I will learn the lessons that God would teach me and that He would use me as He sees fit.

God has inspired me to write a document called the Declaration of Dependence.  Or, at least I believe He inspired me (I can't imagine having created it on my own).  At this writing, some copies of those documents have been sent out to a few national Christian leaders requesting their affirmation by becoming one of 56 ultimate signers.  Now, we wait -upon them, yes - but mostly upon God. 

It is true that I desire affirmation from these great men and women of God.  It is true that I want to see an overwhelmingly positive response.  But it is also true that my desires and wants, especially in this matter, are of little consequence.  What God wants is the only thing that really counts.  I am praying that, in spite of the time, money, and effort I have spent to produce this document, I will accept and even invite God's refusal to honor it, should that be the case.  I am even praying that if this is the only significant work I will ever be able to do for Him, and if it falls into relative insignificance, and He takes me to be with Him, to appear before the throne (empty-handed as it were), that I will still be grateful for the small things He has allowed me to do in His name. 

For now, this website is my only ministry.  The funds for radio or TV are out of the question.   But, perhaps someone will stumble here by a providentially inspired "accident" and perhaps that someone will catch the fire God has kindled in me.  I know that His powers are limitless, and that everything I do depends upon Him.  So, if you are reading these words by "accident", look out!  God may just want you to DO something!

Here in the cave, I am not really in despair, nor am I discouraged.  I have learned in my latter years that, like Moses, I may have to wait decades  to serve Him.  Or that, like Moses, I may never have the opportunity to enter the promised land (which, for me, is to see our nation turn to Christ once again), but I will be more than blessed if He allows me to merely view it from a distance, having played a very small part.

The cave is dark, and cold, and a little frightening, but the Lord gives me the light, the warmth, and the comfort I so desperately need.  Dare I ask for more?  When will I emerge from the cave?  What will I be upon that emergence?  He alone knows.  I only know that the emergence is not an emergency.  I will wait, patiently, upon the Lord.  There is something very appealing about mounting up with wings as eagles. 

------Paul Parsons

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